i feel so much pressure from my mum.
now that my nephew stays at my house
she doesn't really talk to me much.
all she does is suddenly come into my room
with my nephew in hand and ask me to pack my room.
and maybe give me pocketmoney.
not that i'm not grateful,
it's just so frickin distant.

my nephew kicks the soccer ball at my cat,
i asked him to stop, he cries and runs to my mum,
and i get scolded. he gets a hug and a sweet.

and i get an A for a test
it'll be "oh okay"

usually i'm okay with it,
i don't complain, since she already has so much on her plate.
just that today isn't a good day for me.
my heart hurts.
i was already absorbed in doing my work
and was feeling much better
until she came in and demoralised me furthur.

guess it's one of those days where i just
wanna be alone, let it all out,
and get strength from God to last me for another few months.
i miss sonia.